so in recent forever...school started 2 weeks and a day ago.I haven't had a life since the summer started.I hate it :/. I've been lying to so many people it's not funny.To mention a few names,my ex and some of my most trusted friends...I really don't know why either.And it's just over the smallest things even imaginable.I guess it's just I don't feel like hearing anyone complain.Yeah,I know I'm not expressing all of my life and feelings like a lot of my DA buds,and I'm sorry for not being there for you guys.Annoying the shit out of you guys and making you crack up laughing with my some what slight stupidity... And with all of my friends dumping crud all on me with their drama,and they mention my name in it...and you know how it goes after that.I think I've just been thinking about this forever,and now decide to say something about.I really need someone I can just dump crud all on without them says"uh-huh...yeah,no way!" simple boring statements,and don't really care about it.Like in band for the past 4 weeks,I've had to cuss out 7 different people,and you'd imagine they'd be freshman,but they're all the upper class-men,I think I'm getting tired of them more than anyone.Besides the few seniors that I like as friends.I dunno.This journal is probably just me rambling too.My suicidal friends are getting stupider and stupider,and it's just upsetting me how they'd trie and end their lives without thinking about it.My supposed "friends" have been getting at me for the past forever of the stupidest of things as well..I really only have about 2 people who I can talk to and care.Oh well,I guess that's how life's supposed to be.May quit band soon,may also leave DA for a bit...probably a not to that part though,so as my most favoritest person on here says: no worries...I'll probably be fine after a long time thinking about stuff
bye bye everyone ^^

PS: anyone know what I should do for my birthday?