so in recent forever...school started 2 weeks and a day ago.I haven't had a life since the summer started.I hate it :/. I've been lying to so many people it's not funny.To mention a few names,my ex and some of my most trusted friends...I really don't know why either.And it's just over the smallest things even imaginable.I guess it's just I don't feel like hearing anyone complain.Yeah,I know I'm not expressing all of my life and feelings like a lot of my DA buds,and I'm sorry for not being there for you guys.Annoying the shit out of you guys and making you crack up laughing with my some what slight stupidity... And with all of my friends dumping crud all on me with their drama,and they mention my name in it...and you know how it goes after that.I think I've just been thinking about this forever,and now decide to say something about.I really need someone I can just dump crud all on without them says"uh-huh...yeah,no way!" simple boring statements,and don't really care about it.Like in band for the past 4 weeks,I've had to cuss out 7 different people,and you'd imagine they'd be freshman,but they're all the upper class-men,I think I'm getting tired of them more than anyone.Besides the few seniors that I like as friends.I dunno.This journal is probably just me rambling too.My suicidal friends are getting stupider and stupider,and it's just upsetting me how they'd trie and end their lives without thinking about it.My supposed "friends" have been getting at me for the past forever of the stupidest of things as well..I really only have about 2 people who I can talk to and care.Oh well,I guess that's how life's supposed to be.May quit band soon,may also leave DA for a bit...probably a not to that part though,so as my most favoritest person on here says: no worries...I'll probably be fine after a long time thinking about stuff
bye bye everyone ^^

PS: anyone know what I should do for my birthday?

So today was the first back to school day...it was all great until some what I would like to say "drama" was brought up.Not really even drama...just things from the past that I want to get away from.
Sorry to those who don't really get this lil' tid bit...but it's what needs to be said to a certain someone on DA and in RL (they're on both..)
I'm sorry Nick.Yes,I broke up with you...but there was a reason behind it...I don't understand why you had gotten upset from something you heard...and didn't even ask me about it before you got upset.I was basically on the verge of crying because of the fact you were like that...You even made me lose my appetite because I was that upset...Its not that I was ignoring your calls all summer...I don't even have my own time to call...I have about 2 hours to myself everyday...just with me...and I'm sorry I don't call as much as you want...I'm moving on from the past...and no,it's not you and no it's not me...I hate that fucking line...its just I need to chill out for a while.I like it to myself to be honest.Each time I'm with someone...it's just I'm under too much stress.Sorry if this hurts you more than it hurts me...
Other than that life is kinda ehh ish..not much going on in my personal one...family wise there's a lot of problems...friend wise...as you can see problems..I'm planning on helping a friend out with their problems as well...so I may take a break from the internet for a while...so much stress can get to me...and I break down.Well...that's about it
wonderful first day eh?

well today is the shittiest day of my life...no matter^^'anyways, uploading about 15 new stock photos from great wolf lodge and historic williamsburg.There's a few backgrounds,graveyards,tombstones,and wolves in there.So have fun,and remember my rules!

Anyhoo...I tagged myself from 's journal...so here goes:

10 things people probably don't know about me:

1. I can't stand the "black" people at my school
2. I would never hang out with any of them
3. I hang out with the "goth" kids
4. I get tired of people easily
5. I'm agnostic
6. I've had about 4 boyfriends so far...and I've been asked out by 13 girls o-o....
7. I love playing music,even though it sucks
8. I can never make up my mind
9. I'm intimidated by people about 4 inches taller than me
10. I can't stand people who assume things.

9 things everyone knows about me:

1. I'm an obsessive musician
2. I am very random a lot
3. I confuse everyone and myself
4. I somehow manage to hang out with everyone even if they don't talk to me
5. I wear glasses
6. I'm very lazy.
7. I can't stand being inside while on the phone
8. I'm paranoid.
9. My mom is like a counselor XD.

8 odd things about me:

1. I want to cos play...just haven't found out what yet lol
2. I love the sight of Lightening
3. I love silence when I'm not around other people
4. I can't stand "black" people XD yet again
5. I don't like people who act like they are ghetto
6. I love to watch anime
7. I say "I love you" to everyone that I'm friends with/that I can stand
8. I am the most clumsiest person in the world

7 friendsIn no particular order of me liking them lol)

1. Russell
2. CC
3. Cody
4. Lyn
5. Chris
6. Nick
7. Brittany

6 of my favorite books/mangas:

1. Death Note
2. In the Valley of Wolves
3. Bleach
4. Naruto
5. Inkheart series
6. Twilight series

5 of my favorite songs:

1. That(Such a thing)-Hurt
2. Violent Pornography-System of a Down
3. Always-Saliva
4. Almost Easy-Avenged Sevenfold
5. I.V.- XJapan

4 of my favorite foods:

1. (don't say eww please)Half-cooked hamburger meat/ground beef/steak
2. Brownies
3. any kind of potoatoes
4. Rice

3 things I want to say to three people:

1. Leave me alone
2. What the hell is that?
3. Leave me alone right now...I'm not in the mood to hear your voice

2 interesting facts I wanna share:

1. I'm really upset about life right now...why can't there be an easy rule book?
2. My back itches...

The People I want to tag:
all DA friends who feel like doing this

All right, since I'm tired of being on the horrible sim games and all and getting yelled at for not "properly" crediting my stock...(even though I did...I won't ramble about that though :/) I decided to create my own stock since I take so many damn pictures XD I'll have rules up and all later,I already know one though: ASK to use on a sim game XD -for those of you who don't know what those are....really don't ask, you'll get into them . That's my random blurb for the day bye all!


Stock Rules

All Deviants have permission to use them in prints, photomanipulations, and features in journals.

If you do use my stock, you MUST note me or leave a comment on the image...I want to see what you've done with them

ask to use off of DA don't worry, I'll most likely say yes, unless it's for a sim.If I don't like that sim game, then it'll be a no.

I'd rather you not use my images for stuff in a pornographic/nude/inappropriate manipulation

DO NOT take my images and add color to them, it is not a photomanipulation. Thank you...

If any of these rules are broken, I have the right to take them down from my account,watermark them,and also request you to take your image down

Well,it's summer, and amazingly I survived my first year of public school without punching someone^^.*ish so proud of herself* well, I have my internet back,so no more over at Britt's stuff.I feel like i've missed so much in the little week that I was gone O.o...(you guys did to...I believe that you all missed me all emotional and pissed all about a boy breaking up with me over the past-then found out today it was also for another girl...but, I gots a new one)Anyways, recently I finished my Silver Award for Girl Scouts(yes, for those of you who don't know, I am a girl scout....) and we did a community service prodject, which happend to be creating a crappy felt board that nobody but the leader and her daughter felt like doing...anyways,I'm a senior Girl Scout..and we can do the Gold Award.Which is exactly like the bronze, and silver, doing a project for your community.Anyways, I'm planning on doing this alone, and I'm not quite sure on what I wanna do yet.So I though my creative family of DA members could help me figure something out.Ooh yeah! Also, I'm officially a band manager... only thing is, as they're practicing and being all suckish(and I'm permitted to tell them so)I must find venues and help them think up their name too...so if you have any idea about that, it would be awsome.(they're a metal band by the way....)